: Courtney Snyder,....Thank you for being on Fresh Air.
CS: Thank you, Terry. Thank you for having me.
TG: So......I understand that before you were an Pulitzer Prize winning blogger, you were a ...psychiatrist. That must have been ...pretty different?
CS: It was.... In many ways. For one thing, my vocabulary was different back then. I'd use phrases like... "narcissistic injury, projective identification, avoidant attachment,".... Now as a blogger, I sometimes use the F word. I still occasionally use psychological terms, ....when they make me laugh ...but that way of talking and interacting with the world no longer makes sense to me, not in the way that art makes sense to me...not in the way a well placed word that conveys a certain sentiment makes sense to me.
TG: You mentioned the F word. Do you use profanity in your real
CS: (BEEP) no. .. very rarely ...seriously - hardly ever.
TG: Have you ever felt that psychiatry was inhibiting for you, or that blogging has been liberating.
CS: Absolutely ... but that didn't happen all at once. In fact, when I first started blogging, I wanted to say something "sucked," ... At the time, I thought it conveyed exactly what I needed for a particular post. But I didn't have the courage, so I ran it by a couple people I'm close to. They found it disagreeable. I think they thought I was writing as a professional - a psychiatrist. I wasn't. But also, I didn't realize that they weren't my audience ...I
was my audience... along with other people who liked short words that sometimes rhyme with truck.
TG: So... does that mean you're not motivated to help people through your writing?
CS: Whenever I go that route with writing,...I get stuck..., so I try hard to resist the desire to be helpful.....I am always hopeful though, that by writing what energizes me and putting it out there, that someone will find inspiration, validation, connection ....but a cure, a fix, help...no.
TG: Aside from replacing multisyllabic overly-intellectual words with short offensive ones, and becoming less helpful....how else have things changed...
Me: (pause)...hmm....Well, I'm sure I experience art differently. In the past, for example, if I read a story in which someone wrote themselves into an a situation, ...maybe one where they've reached success or even fame...you know like.... let's say.. like being on your show .....I probably would've analyzed their unconscious reasons for writing such a story - as if I even knew what those reasons were
or I might've wondered about their pathological need for attention.
TG: And now?
CS: Now, I'd probably think, ..."Cool.... I
want to be on Fresh Air
TG: Courtney Snyder, thank you ...SO MUCH for being on the show.
CS: Thank you Terry - It was really great to be here.